All I want you to do is to fetch me from school.
All I want you to do is to send me to school.
All I want you to do is to know when to cheer me up when I seem to not be myself.
All I want you to do is love me for me.
All I want you to do is to know how to stop me from crying when I'm crying..

Is all this request so hard to do?
So much things I had kept to myself.
So much things I told myself to let it go.
So much things I wanna tell you.

But everytime there seems to be something blocking me from saying and doing.
I know I'm not good at giving in to you.
I know I'm not good at giving you the best attitude.
I know I'm not good at handling situations like this.
I know you've been holding on when I'm pushing you away.

But whenever I really wanna talk to you nicely everything just turn out to be bad.
I'm starting to lose my senses.
I'm starting hate myself for treating you like this.
I'm starting to not know who I am.

I'm stubborn. I'm short tempered. I'm not the ideal girlfriend for every guy.
But I know for every relationships I had I've gave my all.
I wanna change. I really wanna..
I want to find back the Mxy in 2007.
When she's able to think. Able to give in. Able to talk calmly even when there's a situation..

after so much setbacks I've grown to be like this.
all this while I've tried changing back to the me in 2007.
But no matter how hard I try to.. I'll still revert to the same old me..
Time.. I need time.....

I miss 2007.
If I could I'll travel back to that time.
If only I can find that mxy back I won't give up so easily.
I won't lose my temper so easily.
I won't be this weak...

Once I'm back to be the Mxy I once was.
It'll then be a brand new start for me...

For the time being.. will anyone support me?
Will anyone be there to catch me when I'm falling?
I hope so...

Goodbye blogger..
I'll be blogging at onsugar/tumblr for the time being.

Till then,fateisgone